This is the first time since you've been gone that I can bring myself to get on here & try to put into words how I feel.
It's been just over two months since we found you, the morning of May 22. The most devastating day of my life. Everyday my heart hurts with how much I miss you. Everything I see & do, there's something I want to tell you or show you or reminds me of you & the many things we talked about or did together. Those memories do make me happy and at the same time they cause me break down from the unbelievable pain of missing you. There's never been a time in my life that "My Billy" wasn't there, anytime for any reason. No matter what I could tell you anything & you could always find a way to help me figure it out or just listen.
YOUR LOVE WAS COMPLETELY UNCONDITIONAL ALWAYS.
You always helped whoever you could, with anything you had.
Not everyone knew what a soft heart you had. You could certainly be mean & tough if you needed to be but mostly you were just My Billy: Sweet, Loving, Thoughtful, Considerate, Compassionate, Helpful, Smart, so very smart, such a Huge & Tender Heart, Always had a compliment to give, Loved spending time with family and oh how we loved spending time with you, just being in your presence always, always made me happy.
I Love your laugh & your smile & your amazing blue eyes, oh how I miss them & you.
I'm still trying to comprehend that you're gone & I can't just sit & chat with you for hours like we used to do, just because. I can not even begin to put into words what it means to me to have had you with me those last six months but they went by way too fast.
I've tried to put it into words but I feel like there really are no words to describe how much
I LOVE & MISS YOU...WITH EVERY CELL IN MY BODY.
OH MY BILLY YOU ARE TRULY A PART OF MY HEART & I'VE BEEN LOST WITHOUT YOU!!
Tuesday August 1, 2017 at 5:44 pm